In the quest for
popular spiritual "personalities," we
are more likely to listen to an athlete or entertainer or politician
with a dramatic conversion story than to a frumpy monk who
has spent a whole life in quiet practices of prayer and inconspicuous
fasting. In our own fasting efforts, we can impress people
more with our sacrifice and devotion if we will at least look
like we're suffering dramatically. But that external
appearance of spiritual zeal guarantees nothing about what
is going on in the heart. The poseur does not fast effectively.
The deep reward of fasting is not recognition by others, but
a deeper experience of God's love. The faithful fast
declares to ourselves and to God that the very thing that
sustains us is God, not physical bread. The effective fast
reminds us that living bread comes by God's graceful
provision. True living bread does not come on our terms at
our command. "Whenever you want it, as much as you
want" may sound like modern marketing strategy, but
remember that the original step of sin was made through one
bite taken on our terms, rejecting God's terms of
when and how much. An effective fast can reveal to us our
inordinate hungers and dependencies. It can be like a spiritual
full-length mirror before which we stand naked. In moments
like that, we begin to see in much deeper ways how graciously
God accepts and loves us.
We might wish that fasting, like many other self-improvement
techniques, would be quick and dramatically obviously effective.
There is no spiritual liposuction, and new research indicates
that even physical liposuction, while it might reduce obvious
belly fat quickly, has very little benefit for the heart. To
benefit the physical heart, the fat must be eliminated through
simple daily practices of eating less and working the muscles
more. So it is in our heart of hearts.
May our fasting, along with all our spiritual practices, be
increasingly more quiet, deep and effective for drawing our
hearts closer to the heart of God. |